Friday 17 July 2009

Breakfast (finish 9.40am) - 200g yogurt, an apple.

Lunch (finish 4.30pm) - two hardboiled eggs, 135g cauliflower, half of the seed mixture.

Snack (snacks are not allowed on this plan, but I was yawning) - cup of black English Breakfast with stevia.

Dinner (finish 10pm) - 50g edam and a stick of celery (due to engagement ring browsing, today's eating was completely out of structure).

I learnt something about myself yesterday that I sort of suspected or wondered about - when I'm upset or stressed, I don't eat. All this time I thought it was the other way around (otherwise I wouldn't be fat, right?), but no! What happens is I get upset about something, I don't eat and the hunger pangs don't bother me in the slightest. Then after a while my mind ticks over and my mind (not my body) starts worrying about my health if I don't eat, so I do. But because my body doesn't want it and it's out of whack, I don't eat in normal portions or normal foods or anything like that. So I usually overeat because I wasn't listening to my body in the first place.

I wonder how I would go about working on this one....

Thursday 16 July 2009

Breakfast (finish 10.05am) - two hardboiled eggs, 110g cauliflower, seed mixture and a cup of black tea with stevia.

Next meal (finish 5.40pm) - 75g edam, an apple and the oil and vinegar mixture. Was a bit upset after my 3pm meeting and even eating at this late time of the day was pushing it.

Continued from yesterday... I seem to have two routines I need to work out a routine for - my work days, which start earlier - I usually need a bigger breakfast, smaller lunch and I often forget about dinner on these days (I am working on this), and my non-work days where I laze around and, if I'm not thinking about it, I wont eat for a good 3-4hrs after waking. Then I'm hungry all day (probably because I can be).

Today is a day off, I have today and tomorrow off, and then it's the weekend! Yay! Going to meet with council people today.

Actually it's good doing formal things like this every now and then because it reminds me of one very good reason I am on this weight loss trail - to feel comfortable in any situation. I know appearance is important, just for first impressions, and I will always be giving my second-best appearance when I am fat and my clothes are ill-fitting. I'll do my best today anyway though. Wish I were already at goal for this meeting but there's nothing I can do about that now.

Wednesday 15 July 2009

Breakfast (finish 9.10am) - two hard boiled eggs and an apple.

Lunch (finish 3.20pm) - cup of coffee, rye wrap with cos, celery, cucumber and turkey and an apple.

Dinner (finish 9pm) - 100g cooked chicken, 145g cauliflower, peppermint tea, seed mixture and oil/vinegar.

Well, I regained that missing hunger today! Couldn't wait for the next meal, kept filling up on extra water. First day I have made all three meals! Yay! I've been actively working towards getting breakfast done earlier and earlier in the day and fitting in that third meal before it's time for bed. Slow steps but it's working! :) It's quite amazing what you can achieve when you're not over-worrying yourself with achieving perfection.

A bit more trial and error is required, will get there. I want to get more trips to the gym into my schedule as well. I only have the one in there at the moment (bare minimum one visit to my personal trainer) and I keep missing the other opportunities. Been too tired. Genuinely, though I haven't I could have slept at like 8pm. I think it's all the fake-buzzes from caffeine and the like and now doing mostly without that. Both will make one tired.

Tuesday 14 July 2009

Breakfast (finish 9.10am) - two hardboiled eggs and a pear

Lunch (finish 3.15pm) - rye wrap with cos and celery inside (this was also supposed to have turkey in it but I accidentally grabbed raw chicken breast instead of sliced turkey this morning and got a disappointing surprise when I opened the package at lunch time lol), an apple and a cup of tea

Dinner (finish 8.30pm) - 100g edam, seed mixture and oil and vinegar in a glass. Oh and 135g cauliflower.

Thanks Harry, you give some of the best advice!

I messed up my counting of dinner tonight - ate at 4hrs since finish time rather than the 5. Oops! I was already half way through eating when I realised. Too bad, done now, onto tomorrow.

So I had my very first weigh in with Sureslim this afternoon - down 2.4kgs! That's pretty good but considering I was eating lots of carbs before AND had TOM, well it isn't quite that exciting. I'll be excited if I have a good result next week though :)

Also I got to find out how a weigh in goes with them. It's pretty much just a weigh and how did you go this week, any obstacles, slip ups or anything else you want to go over. I went over the fact I find it huge portions and I haven't yet had three meals a day this week. She said she can understand and always listen to my body, keep working on trying to get breakfast happening early and that way I can fit in that 3rd meal for the day.

What was missing was a discussion about the upcoming week, any goals, any obstables, plan of attack. So, I'm going to go over that now :)

Obstacles for this week - My Aunt's birthday this Sunday! She always cooks a big roast. Oh, I can't eye-ball portions yet.... maybe my plan of action will be doing a bit of eye-balling studying hehe. My goal is to do pilates this Monday (in addition to my usual personal training on Friday).

Monday 13 July 2009

Breakfast (finish 9.20am) - yogurt and seed mixture with stevia. Too full to finish this, ate about half.

Lunch (finish 2.30pm) - two hardboiled eggs with a green salad of cos, cucumber and celery, topped with olive oil and apple cider vinegar dressing.

Dinner (finish 7.45pm) - the rest of this morning's yogurt mixture and an apple.

Stuffed today. Is my stomach getting smaller because of the big breaks between meals or something? Otherwise I just don't understand it. I'm really choking down the portions I can manage.

Sunday 12 July 2009

Breakfast (finish 12.25pm) - 200g natural yogurt, one pear, stevia and seed mixture.

Next meal (finish 6.10pm) - 140g cooked chicken, an apple, a green salad with olive oil and apple cider vinegar dressing.

Not hungry at all today (can you tell?), very short of my food allocations. I'm trying to remind myself it's ok though - it's more important to listen to your body and not eat when it doesn't want to, than force it.

With the square meals each day and no snacking, I'm finding it hard to fit all the food from one meal in, in one sitting!

Saturday 11 July 2009

Breakfast (finish 2pm) - rye wrap with tuna, boiled broccoli (left overs from yesterday), cos and tomato. Oh and lots of herbs. Yum! And a black cup of tea with stevia.

Next meal (finish 7.30pm) - 2 hardboiled eggs, a bunch of asaparagus, an apple and the day's seed mix.

This diet has a "no mixing of proteins" rule that I find really hard to abide by. I'm doing it, but it takes all the fun out of food - who would have thought!

Thanks Harry! It's too soon to see any results or anything like that on this new plan - it's only Day 2 - but it's going ok. I absolutely suck at all the measuring and preparation but I'm making sure just because I'm not perfect, doesn't mean the towel gets thrown in. I just have to make the best of what I can and have done. :)

Friday 10 July 2009

Breakfast (finished 10.20am) - 200g natural yogurt, 1 diced kiwi fruit, most of today's seed mixture and stevia.

Lunch (finished 4.20pm) - 2 hard boiled eggs with salad of cos, cucumber and celery with the rest of the seed mixture, 1tbsp olive oil and 3tsp apple cider vinegar and some boiled broccoli. One cup of black stevia-sweetened tea.

Dinner - an apple. Didn't feel like anything else - after a fortnight of short nights I just want to rug up on a cold Friday night for some sleep.

Tuesday 7 July 2009

Hi again!

Well a promise is a promise (I made one, right?)! So here I am reporting that I've now got my Sureslim meal plan. Yay! I've been spending this whole time getting my head into gear - instead of focussing on any goal, I'm just going to follow one day at a time and that's it (because being thin makes me quite uncomfortable - but that's something I have to deal with when I get there, instead of worrying about it from afar).

So, I plugged a day into a food counter and came up with the following stats:

Food Total: Cals kJ Fat Prot. Carb. Sugar
Day Total: 1517 6340 100.1g 78.4g 86.2g 42.4g

Over 38g of that carb count comes from two apples. They insist you at least have one apple per day, and another piece of fruit of my choosing.

Not too bad, actually. Little higher here, little lower there than my ideal, but overall I'm very happy. Rather than rushing into things and just crashing, I'm going to read through and plan tonight, do some shopping and cooking tomorrow, and start on Thursday. :)

Wish me luck!