Friday 31 July 2009

Breakfast (finish 9.45am) - 200g yogurt, a pear and seed mixture. Oil/vinegar.

Lunch (finish 4.15pm) - 130g chicken in rye wrap with 135g grated zucchini and a few pieces of cos. A cup of stevia-sweetened peppermint tea.

Dinner (finish 10.40pm) - 140g garlic prawns and 145g broccoli and zucchini.

It's too late in the day to have an apple, I'll be up all night. Not sure what to do about this as it's one of the rules. I guess better planning and not doing it again is my only option.

Thursday 30 July 2009

Breakfast (finish 10.30am) - two hardboiled eggs, 110g zucchini and an apple. Oil/vinegar.

Lunch (finish 4pm) - 130g cajun chicken with 135g grated zucchini, cos in a rye wrap and a pair. This was the best wrap I've ever had!! And a pear.

Dinner (finish 11pm) - seed mixture, 110g smoked salmon, 145g zucchini and brocolli and mum's tonic.

Felt good up until about 5pm and then a splitting headache set in. I don't usually get headaches so they always catch me off guard. I tried to wait it out but it was throbbing by 6pm and I was still at work. At 6.20pm I had a black cup of tea hoping the caffeine would throw it off but it didn't work. Had plenty of water too.

At dinner I had mum's "tonic" which is usually lemon, honey, garlic and ginger. I had it without the honey and added stevia instead but it worked like a charm! I feel fantastic!!

I don't know if that drink is on or off plan but really, my waist is going to have to come second to a splitting headache. Especially since I was considering taking panadol or something else pharmaceutical for it. I'm happy that I don't have to, natural all the way :)

Harry, it's TOM at the moment and I always fluctuate in mood during this time. I'm still at a bit of a loss about the council rejecting my application to build a house but I'll eventually get there. Just need to keep plugging away. Thanks for your best wishes.

Wednesday 29 July 2009

Breakfast (finish 8.55am) - 200g yogurt, 100g kiwi, seed mixture.

Lunch (finish 3pm) - 130g smoked salmon in rye wrap with cos and cucumber, and a cup of stevia-sweetened tea.

Dinner (finish 8.45pm) - 145g cauliflower, 140g cajun chicken and an apple.

Feeling good today. Sooooo much energy, not hungry, I feel like the Engergizer Bunny lol

Having said that I feel in despair about the house situation. Amendments are a hurdle I can attack, starting from scratch isn't so much.

Tuesday 28 July 2009

Breakfast (finish 8.40am) - 200g yogurt with 100g kiwi fruit and most of today's seed mixture.

Lunch (finish 2.15pm) - 130g turkey in a rye wrap with cos and celery, and the rest of today's seed mixture. And a nice cup of stevia-sweetened tea.

Dinner (finish 8.30pm) - two hardboiled eggs, an apple and 145g cauliflower, oil/vinegar.

Yesterday I had a bit of a "feel sorry for myself" period when I realised (again) that when I was much younger and thought I was fat, that I wasn't. And now that I'm fooling myself into thinking I'm just heavier than normal, that I actually am. You know the old "I can't believe I am at this stage" and then "but I have no-one to blame but myself".

TOM has just arrived so that would explain that, but it doesn't make the emotions feel any less real. You know?

It's size distortion. I have to truly work on that.

Monday 27 July 2009

Breakfast (finish 8.40am) - 200g yogurt with a pear.

Snack - black, unsweetened tea (about a 5th of a cup)

Lunch (finish 2.45pm) - rye wrap with 130g chicken, lettuce, half a medium tomato and cucumber. And an apple and a cup of black coffee.

Dinner (finish 8.25pm) - 140g smoked salmon, seed mixture and veggies including half a medium tomato.

Really flagging today. I must have worn out my mental reserves because I was so bogged in the head that I would do something then wonder if I did it or just thought about it, and would have to go check. Then do the exact same thing a second later. I had to have some tea in between meals or my job, which relies on accuracy, wouldn't survive the day. I also had two confrontational conversations later in the day which I needed to be awake and alert during. They went surprisingly well. Not perfect, like they would have a few days ago, but well.

Sunday 26 July 2009

Breakfast (finish 1pm) - 75g edam, seed mixture and a big stalk of celery. This is amazingly filling and I really had to put work into finishing it!

Lunch (finish 6.50pm) - Salad of lettuce, celery, zucchini, spring onion, snow peas and smoked salmon (135g), an apple and oil/vinegar mix.

Went plant shopping today and got a bunch of plants that are natives from a specialty nursery. I love natives, they just have a nicer look I think compared to the imports.

Also bought a mallet. Watch out concrete, here I come!!

Oh and something else I've noticed on top of the mental clarity, I think my hair is actually getting thicker! I am now having problems fitting it through my hair ties to put it up! And I haven't changed ties. If anything they should be a little stretched from me using them so often. Strange!

Saturday 25 July 2009

Breakfast (finish 11.10pm) - two hardboiled eggs and salad of lettuce, cucumber and celery with oil/vinegar dressing.

Lunch (finish 5.35pm) - 130g turkey in rye wrap with cucumber and half a medium tomato, an apple and a cup of tea.

Dinner (finish 11.45pm) - 140g smoked salmon, the other half of the tomato and cucumber, a pear and the seed mixture.

Weighed in today - down another 1.85kg! Yay!

The bad news is I took in my food log and she pointed out the rules state you can only have the eggs up to three times a week (due to the cholesterol). I didn't know that, thought the only limit with them was once a day. Oops! Anyway, as you know cholesterol doesn't really worry me. I don't believe it's a good indicator of heart health in the slightest. I'll follow these rules because I'm following the plan. But I'm not buying into the cholesterol theory.

Has everyone here read Good Calories, Bad Calories by Gary Taubes?

Friday 24 July 2009

Breakfast (finish 10am) - 200g yogurt and a pear. Yesterday I thought I had 200g but forgot to take my scales to work so I had to eye-ball it. Not much left in my 500g tub now after these two servings - oops!

Lunch (finish 3.30pm) - rye wrap with lettuce, cucumber and 130g chicken and an apple.

Dinner (finish 9pm) - two hard boiled eggs, 145g cauliflower, oil/vinegar mix and seed mixture.

Went to the gym today for the first time in about three weeks (wow! Longest gap in a few years for me!!) and I had NO energy for it. I didn't have good co-ordination like I usually do, urgh.

Thursday 23 July 2009

Breakfast (finish 9.10am) - 200g plain yogurt with a pair.

Lunch (finish 2.30pm) - rye wrap with lettuce, red capsicum and 140g chicken.

Dinner - 145g cauliflower (I love cauliflower!) and 140g tuna with oil, an apple and seed mixture.

Had a great day, still mentally clear like yesterday. I'm loving this. I may have found my way of eating - my mental clarity is all the evidence I need :)

Thanks Harry! I'm trying. Still feeling cold. Actually I probably shouldn't have told the acupunturist because he'll probably have attended to that and I'm start overheating again hehe. Can't have it all!

Wednesday 22 July 2009

Breakfast (finish 8.10am) - two hard boiled eggs and 130g cauliflower.

Lunch (finish 1.35pm) - rye wrap containing tuna in oil (I did as the Sureslim rules say and bought tuna in water and added the oil myself so I know it's good quality oil and how much), lettuce, tomato and capsicum. Supposed to be 130g tuna and 135g other stuff in the wrap - got the other veggies but not all that tuna fit in the wrap. I took this and ate it at work so will have to finish the rest of the tuna off tonight for dinner. Oh and as I was at a seminar (yes, I got questioned about why I brought and ate my own lunch when lunch was provided for us... not too badly though) I had roughly an apple in size of watermelon, canteloupe and strawberries.

Dinner (finish 7.10pm) - 100g grilled fish from the fish and chip shop (had to rub the fish with tissue to get any crusting off) with the rest of lunch's tuna and 145g cauliflower, seed mixture, an apple.

OK so to follow on from yesterday, I've reluctantly decided to keep my appointment tomorrow (I'm a chronic canceller) which is with my acupunturist. Think I might get him to assess how my eating changes have been affecting my body and possibly my cold issue. Actually the last two nights I've had brilliant nights' sleeps and I'm learning to rug up more. Might also have something to do with being the dead of winter right now lol. I forgot to take a multi this morning during my rush out the door so I'll have to remember tomorrow. I always feel better with them.

As for exercise, I have a booking with my trainer. If the shift at work can't be changed, I'll have to reschedule that appointment to the morning but either way it'll be on Friday. Yay! I'm soooo looking forward to getting moving again.

Thanks heaps guys, and of course I don't mind extra comments, Sunny! The more the merrier!

[Pictured is the kind of day it was today - soooo glad I wore my warmest coat which has a hood bc I got rained on hehe]

Tuesday 21 July 2009

Breakfast (finish 9.30am) - 200g yogurt and an apple.

Lunch (finish 3pm) - Egg salad same as yesterday. Yum! Plus an apple.

Dinner - going to be roast beef. I know I'm supposed to be off red meat, but besides me thinking that's nonsense, it's hard to have anything to do with my family that doesn't have red meat involved (as you may have noticed) and it's being made especially for me! So I'll have some. It's at home though so I wont get pressured into dessert again or anything like that.

Actual dinner (finish 9.10pm) - 140g roast beef with roasted onions and half a tomato, seed mixture. Full as!!

Thanks heaps for your ideas in yesterday's Comments :)
You're absolutely right, and telling me what I really need to know, I need to get back in to exercising. It's hard though, it's like a vicious circle - the more I get stressed and tired the more I don't want to exercise, and the more I don't exercise the more stressed and tired I get!

I'll push myself. Ok, *gets out diary* if I book it in here and promise it to you, then I have to go. Ok, I have an appointment on Thur but I'm going to call and change it, and go to Pump instead. Oh I haven't been to Pump in soooo long. I'm almost scared lol.

Maybe I should start taking a multi, Oct. Think that might help? I figured the cravings would just come naturally because your body craves things it hasn't had in a while... at least mine does.

Hmmm I'll try it out and let you know how I go :)

Thanks again! Have a good one!

Monday 20 July 2009

Breakfast (finish 9.10am) - 200g natural yogurt with a pear and a cup of tea.

Lunch (finish 3pm) - Salad with two hardboiled eggs, cos, celery and tomato. Oil/vinegar dressing.

Dinner - Seed mixture and some veggies.

I'm starting to get stressed about things again. I'm not sure why really. Maybe it's close to TOM. It's probably got something to do with my trainer cancelling on me the past two weeks (and I couldn't fit in any of her alternative times) so I'm lacking a bit of physical release.

I'm starting to get cravings again. Until now I've been relatively craving-free, but now I'm starting to get them. I'm getting really cold all the time (I'm talking sleeping fully clothed with two doonas and the heater on) and at work too. I'm not used to being cold - usually I quite like being cold and it's everyone else that gets uncomfortable. Also I'm no longer sleeping through the night. It's like I've got too much energy.

Who knows, I'll get to the bottom of it before too long.

Have a great day!

Sunday 19 July 2009

Brunch (finish 2.30pm) - Cajun chicken wrap (made with 130g diced cooked chicken sprinkled with cajun spice, cos, tomato, red capsicum and a rye wrap), an apple and a cup of sweetened peppermint tea.

Off to a family bday this evening, wish me luck! It will be my first meal out that I didn't prepare from scratch since I started Sureslim. I'm just keeping my portions in mind and going to do my best to get it right.

UPDATE: Dinner (finish ... umm I dunno) - at about 5.40pm I had a water cracker with a thin thin scrape of pate and four cherries. At about 6.30pm I had about 200g total of duck and beef (I am supposed to be off red meat but there was no more duck) with lemon gravy, cauliflower, green beans and a tomato and spring onion salad. Around 7.15pm I had two spoonfuls of vanilla cream. The teeniest bit of flourless chocolate cake which was yucky and easy to pass up.

So overall it was very outside what I should be eating, I did the best I could do given the situation I was in, and I didn't do too badly anyway so I'm going to move onto tomorrow as if there was no blip on the radar.

Saturday 18 July 2009

Breakfast (finish 1pm) - 200g yogurt with a pear, sweetened with stevia

Next meal (finish 7.20pm) - seed mixture (and the other half of yesterday's I didn't have), an apple, 100g smoked salmon, 40g chicken, 145g boiled zucchini, oil/vinegar mixture.

Had this great dream last night about Dexter (the actor, not the character) who was moving through different time portals and by doing this he started to bleed today's time with the 80s (and all the awful fashion that implies). LOL If I can remember it, I'll write it all down.

Saw the Dr today, got a second slip to have my cholesterol re-tested following this no-red-meat plan I've been put on to lower it. I know all about The Great Cholesterol Con and as such, I really couldn't give two hoots, but if they're up in arms I don't mind following what they say. I refuse to take any meds for it though, that's my boundary.

Friday 17 July 2009

Breakfast (finish 9.40am) - 200g yogurt, an apple.

Lunch (finish 4.30pm) - two hardboiled eggs, 135g cauliflower, half of the seed mixture.

Snack (snacks are not allowed on this plan, but I was yawning) - cup of black English Breakfast with stevia.

Dinner (finish 10pm) - 50g edam and a stick of celery (due to engagement ring browsing, today's eating was completely out of structure).

I learnt something about myself yesterday that I sort of suspected or wondered about - when I'm upset or stressed, I don't eat. All this time I thought it was the other way around (otherwise I wouldn't be fat, right?), but no! What happens is I get upset about something, I don't eat and the hunger pangs don't bother me in the slightest. Then after a while my mind ticks over and my mind (not my body) starts worrying about my health if I don't eat, so I do. But because my body doesn't want it and it's out of whack, I don't eat in normal portions or normal foods or anything like that. So I usually overeat because I wasn't listening to my body in the first place.

I wonder how I would go about working on this one....

Thursday 16 July 2009

Breakfast (finish 10.05am) - two hardboiled eggs, 110g cauliflower, seed mixture and a cup of black tea with stevia.

Next meal (finish 5.40pm) - 75g edam, an apple and the oil and vinegar mixture. Was a bit upset after my 3pm meeting and even eating at this late time of the day was pushing it.

Continued from yesterday... I seem to have two routines I need to work out a routine for - my work days, which start earlier - I usually need a bigger breakfast, smaller lunch and I often forget about dinner on these days (I am working on this), and my non-work days where I laze around and, if I'm not thinking about it, I wont eat for a good 3-4hrs after waking. Then I'm hungry all day (probably because I can be).

Today is a day off, I have today and tomorrow off, and then it's the weekend! Yay! Going to meet with council people today.

Actually it's good doing formal things like this every now and then because it reminds me of one very good reason I am on this weight loss trail - to feel comfortable in any situation. I know appearance is important, just for first impressions, and I will always be giving my second-best appearance when I am fat and my clothes are ill-fitting. I'll do my best today anyway though. Wish I were already at goal for this meeting but there's nothing I can do about that now.

Wednesday 15 July 2009

Breakfast (finish 9.10am) - two hard boiled eggs and an apple.

Lunch (finish 3.20pm) - cup of coffee, rye wrap with cos, celery, cucumber and turkey and an apple.

Dinner (finish 9pm) - 100g cooked chicken, 145g cauliflower, peppermint tea, seed mixture and oil/vinegar.

Well, I regained that missing hunger today! Couldn't wait for the next meal, kept filling up on extra water. First day I have made all three meals! Yay! I've been actively working towards getting breakfast done earlier and earlier in the day and fitting in that third meal before it's time for bed. Slow steps but it's working! :) It's quite amazing what you can achieve when you're not over-worrying yourself with achieving perfection.

A bit more trial and error is required, will get there. I want to get more trips to the gym into my schedule as well. I only have the one in there at the moment (bare minimum one visit to my personal trainer) and I keep missing the other opportunities. Been too tired. Genuinely, though I haven't I could have slept at like 8pm. I think it's all the fake-buzzes from caffeine and the like and now doing mostly without that. Both will make one tired.

Tuesday 14 July 2009

Breakfast (finish 9.10am) - two hardboiled eggs and a pear

Lunch (finish 3.15pm) - rye wrap with cos and celery inside (this was also supposed to have turkey in it but I accidentally grabbed raw chicken breast instead of sliced turkey this morning and got a disappointing surprise when I opened the package at lunch time lol), an apple and a cup of tea

Dinner (finish 8.30pm) - 100g edam, seed mixture and oil and vinegar in a glass. Oh and 135g cauliflower.

Thanks Harry, you give some of the best advice!

I messed up my counting of dinner tonight - ate at 4hrs since finish time rather than the 5. Oops! I was already half way through eating when I realised. Too bad, done now, onto tomorrow.

So I had my very first weigh in with Sureslim this afternoon - down 2.4kgs! That's pretty good but considering I was eating lots of carbs before AND had TOM, well it isn't quite that exciting. I'll be excited if I have a good result next week though :)

Also I got to find out how a weigh in goes with them. It's pretty much just a weigh and how did you go this week, any obstacles, slip ups or anything else you want to go over. I went over the fact I find it huge portions and I haven't yet had three meals a day this week. She said she can understand and always listen to my body, keep working on trying to get breakfast happening early and that way I can fit in that 3rd meal for the day.

What was missing was a discussion about the upcoming week, any goals, any obstables, plan of attack. So, I'm going to go over that now :)

Obstacles for this week - My Aunt's birthday this Sunday! She always cooks a big roast. Oh, I can't eye-ball portions yet.... maybe my plan of action will be doing a bit of eye-balling studying hehe. My goal is to do pilates this Monday (in addition to my usual personal training on Friday).

Monday 13 July 2009

Breakfast (finish 9.20am) - yogurt and seed mixture with stevia. Too full to finish this, ate about half.

Lunch (finish 2.30pm) - two hardboiled eggs with a green salad of cos, cucumber and celery, topped with olive oil and apple cider vinegar dressing.

Dinner (finish 7.45pm) - the rest of this morning's yogurt mixture and an apple.

Stuffed today. Is my stomach getting smaller because of the big breaks between meals or something? Otherwise I just don't understand it. I'm really choking down the portions I can manage.

Sunday 12 July 2009

Breakfast (finish 12.25pm) - 200g natural yogurt, one pear, stevia and seed mixture.

Next meal (finish 6.10pm) - 140g cooked chicken, an apple, a green salad with olive oil and apple cider vinegar dressing.

Not hungry at all today (can you tell?), very short of my food allocations. I'm trying to remind myself it's ok though - it's more important to listen to your body and not eat when it doesn't want to, than force it.

With the square meals each day and no snacking, I'm finding it hard to fit all the food from one meal in, in one sitting!

Saturday 11 July 2009

Breakfast (finish 2pm) - rye wrap with tuna, boiled broccoli (left overs from yesterday), cos and tomato. Oh and lots of herbs. Yum! And a black cup of tea with stevia.

Next meal (finish 7.30pm) - 2 hardboiled eggs, a bunch of asaparagus, an apple and the day's seed mix.

This diet has a "no mixing of proteins" rule that I find really hard to abide by. I'm doing it, but it takes all the fun out of food - who would have thought!

Thanks Harry! It's too soon to see any results or anything like that on this new plan - it's only Day 2 - but it's going ok. I absolutely suck at all the measuring and preparation but I'm making sure just because I'm not perfect, doesn't mean the towel gets thrown in. I just have to make the best of what I can and have done. :)

Friday 10 July 2009

Breakfast (finished 10.20am) - 200g natural yogurt, 1 diced kiwi fruit, most of today's seed mixture and stevia.

Lunch (finished 4.20pm) - 2 hard boiled eggs with salad of cos, cucumber and celery with the rest of the seed mixture, 1tbsp olive oil and 3tsp apple cider vinegar and some boiled broccoli. One cup of black stevia-sweetened tea.

Dinner - an apple. Didn't feel like anything else - after a fortnight of short nights I just want to rug up on a cold Friday night for some sleep.

Tuesday 7 July 2009

Hi again!

Well a promise is a promise (I made one, right?)! So here I am reporting that I've now got my Sureslim meal plan. Yay! I've been spending this whole time getting my head into gear - instead of focussing on any goal, I'm just going to follow one day at a time and that's it (because being thin makes me quite uncomfortable - but that's something I have to deal with when I get there, instead of worrying about it from afar).

So, I plugged a day into a food counter and came up with the following stats:

Food Total: Cals kJ Fat Prot. Carb. Sugar
Day Total: 1517 6340 100.1g 78.4g 86.2g 42.4g

Over 38g of that carb count comes from two apples. They insist you at least have one apple per day, and another piece of fruit of my choosing.

Not too bad, actually. Little higher here, little lower there than my ideal, but overall I'm very happy. Rather than rushing into things and just crashing, I'm going to read through and plan tonight, do some shopping and cooking tomorrow, and start on Thursday. :)

Wish me luck!