100ml cream - 2.6g
Big breakfast - 2 fried eggs, bacon, mushrooms, spinach, caramalised onions and sliced chorizo - 10g (phew! I thought this was going to be heaps!)
2 Cups of tea with milk - 2g
Harry's burrito in a bowl - 4.5g
That gives a total of 19.1g carb for the day. I'm really having sugar cravings at the moment though (TOM due any day now) so I may or may not have a sf choc later. It's 8.55pm and I'm still full from dinner so my mind says it's silly to but if my body says otherwise, I'm not going to deprive myself. They're 4.7g carb each.
I just want to briefly discuss a topic that I've wanted to write about for a few days but reading Vadim's latest entry it's brought it more to the forefront.
It's the 'why' issue.
Why are we overweight. Why are we staying this way. Why do we want to lose it. Why are we resisting. Why is this time different.
If you want to, I'd truly love everyone to answer the above questions about themselves. Either in a Comment below, in your own blog, or both.
Be as honest as possible. I really think it will help. :)
C'mon, I'll go first...
Why are we overweight? I believe I'm overweight because I attract attention from people without doing anything particularly special and, from the media, it looked like to me that gaining weight would make one unattractive and therefore able to blend into the background. Wrong.
Why are we staying this way? Because as much as my experience tells me that the above reasoning is inaccurate, I can't seem to 100% believe it. Suuuuuurely a fat girl isn't someone people want to hang out with so much? Maybe I'm not big enough (I tested this theory too - wrong again).
Why do we want to lose it? It's physically restrictive and I'm not getting the results that I'd hoped for.
Why are we resisting? It's hard to unlearn something and change a behaviour you've fully had for so many years.
Why is this time different? Well, I'm hoping against hope it is. I don't like this roller coaster - it's embarrassing. Other people around me notice the weight fluctuations (sometimes when there are none hehe) and, I might be wrong, but I think they might think it makes me seem a bit unstable and that's not what I want at all. Also the longer you're big, the more people around you get used to it so the more attention you get when what they're used to changes.
What am I focussing on this time to make it different - psychologically?
Forcing myself to post each and every single day to a bunch of people I know will be expecting it is a great motivater (and I'm returning the favour - don't think you can get away without posting either! lol). I did Reiki 1 a couple of weeks ago and was told that the attraction other people have for me would increase. Now, I'm sure you could guess how pleased I was with that news (would it be too 90s of me to add a "not" in here somewhere?) ;)
Let me just put a quick disclaimer in here before I continue - by "attraction to me" I don't mean anything drastic. It's mearly being spoken to when I'm in a crowd or sitting nowhere-near-obvious in an audience and being picked out by the host or cars driving down the street stopping to yell something out. It's not always nice, either (although I'm sure they think they're being complimentary), but overall it's just a general 'attraction' or 'attention' issue I seem to have while other people around me don't.
I've been speaking to my Psych-K lady about it for yonks now and I think realising, with Reiki, that people are attracted to my energy and not the way I look is really helping.
Does that sound a bit too hocus pocus for most of you? A few years ago it would have for me, too. I guess experience is the key and when you experience your cat reacting to you differently when you change your mental energy around, you figure out people really do have other connections to each other.
A loose statistic that springs to mind is that before WWI the majority of babies born were female and female death during childbirth was stupidly high. After the wars most babies born were male, then it evened up a bit. Nowadays, with women on the whole living longer than men, most babies born are male.
People really do have a connection, it just takes a looooooooong time for a sceptic like me to see it. ;)