It's 10.15am and I haven't eaten anything yet. I can't decide what to have. I'm getting ready to go to the gym to see my trainer for the first time since before Christmas. Back still sore so will try to take it easy there.
I'm having such a hard time making decisions right now.
I'm not really moving any weight at the moment.
Keeping my carbs 18-30g per day isn't working. Fasting works but it's not comfortable and I feel if I did it any longer, I'd lose the balance it's taken a while to get my body into where I really don't crave anything, I have my health back and I don't obsess about food. Low fat worked for me in terms of weight loss but I had no energy, it took over my life because I was constantly fighting cravings and my health really suffered. I was weak too.
I realised during fasting (continuing on from yesterday's list) that I associate being fat with eating luxurious foods. And that if I'm skinny then I'll have to have that battle I mentioned just above. Low fat is the only way I have gone below 70kgs before.
This is depressing (not clinically, don't worry). I'm not very happy. I hate indecisiveness. I just need to make a decision and go with it.
Maybe I need to start counting cals like Jimmy Moore is doing right now? I know I need to cut out the sf chocs. I rarely have diet soft drinks so I don't care about those.
But then, how many cals is the next question? And will I need to start weighing things again??? Are there any "free" foods on a plan like that where I can give my mind a break for a little while?
I tried the Meat & Egg fast for about 4 weeks a few months ago. Easy to follow but I didn't get any weight loss from it. I think you replace the carbs with protein so that prevents any weight loss.
On the other hand, what if I'm one of those people that needs higher carbs? Maybe I should be eating around 150g or more?
Because of my stature, sometimes I think I'm one of those 'born to be strong' people. Only sometimes so maybe I should be following a body builder's diet or something.
I have no idea. I think I'm going to go to the gym on an empty stomach.