Monday 23 November 2009

Breakfast (finish 2pm) - two boiled eggs, an apple, half of seed mixture.

Lunch (finish 4.35pm) - 100g strawberries, cooked chicken, rest of seed mixture, oil/vinegar.

Dinner (finish 9.45pm) - 75g edam, green salad.

I spent over 4hrs Christmas shopping today!! Phew! Glad most of it is over now and I wont have to deal with Christmas shoppers once December hits. :)

Sunday 22 November 2009

Breakfast (finish 10.15am) - 130g chicken, 135g zucchini and broccoli combined, an apple.

Lunch (finish 6.10pm) - 140g garlic prawns, 145g mushrooms and broccoli, seed mixture.

Dinner (finish 10pm) - an apple.

Absolutely stuffed today, but I love having a huge lunch :)

Saturday 21 November 2009

Breakfast (finish 11am) - 140g cajun chicken in rye wrap with grated zucchini, seed mixture.

Lunch (finish 4.15pm) - 130g tuna on salad of greens, an apple.

Didn't get to eat everything today, went to the Hulkamania show. I had half a glass of white wine around 8pm, a scotch and diet coke around midnight and another diet coke around 3.30pm (or I wouldn't have stayed awake).

Friday 20 November 2009

Breakfast (finish 11.05am) - two hardboiled eggs, an apple, seed mixture.

Lunch (finish 4.55pm) - 130g rosted lamb, zucchini, cauliflower.

Dinner (finish 10.05pm) - an apple, oil/vinegar.

... second day on Leave! :)

Thursday 19 November 2009

Breakfast (finish 8.05am) - two hard boiled eggs, half of seed mixture, an apple.

Lunch (finish 1.55pm) - 130g cajun chicken in rye wrap with 135g grated zucchini (yummo!), rest of seed mixture.

Dinner (finish 7.50pm) - 140g roast beef with 145g total of asparagus and broccoli, 100g strawberries and oil/vinegar.

Asparagus is in season at the moment, yay!!

Wednesday 18 November 2009

Breakfast (finish 8.20am) - 200g yogurt with 100g strawberries, seed mixture, an apple.

Lunch (finish 2pm) - 140g tuna in my oil on green salad (cos, celery, cucumber), half a tomato.

Dinner (finish 7.45pm) - 130g garlic prawns, 135g asparagus and broccoli, a pear.

Only another week until the public notices about my new house closes so I can then begin addressing any objections (not so fun) and things can actually move forward. Yay!

Monday 9 November 2009

Breakfast (finish 9.20am) - two boiled eggs, an apple, half of seed mixture.

Lunch (finish 4.35pm) - 100g strawberries, rest of seed mixture, oil/vinegar.

Dinner (finish 9.45pm) - 75g edam.

It's so hot at the moment! I wasn't hungry at all, but I tried....

Sunday 8 November 2009

Breakfast (finish 10.20am) - 140g garlic prawns, stirred with chopped cabbage and broccoli.

Lunch (4.05pm) - 130g barramundi with True Lemon, seed mixture, an apple.

A hot day in what looks like to be a string of hot days to come *sulk*. I spoke to my trainer yesterday, going to cut my sessions with her back to once a week to go a little easier on my wallet - that wont start for 3 weeks though. Then after that I need to get to the gym without her... I'm thinking in this weather that mornings might be the way to go.

Saturday 7 November 2009

Breakfast (finish 2pm) - Peppermint tea with two poached eggs and green salad.

Dinner (finish 7.30pm) - An apple, 140g roast beef, 145g cauliflower, seed mixture.

Oops my eating was totally thrown out today. The foods were ok, it was more the timing. I'm still working on it - it's probably the hardest part!

Oh exciting news, I went out for lunch with a girlfriend today and she suggested that we should do our own little club (just the two of us) to get motivated to lose some weight. She has about 20kgs to lose, I have about 30kgs. She has lost weight before just like I have. I thought it was a good idea at the time but it wasn't until Sunday that I thought actually it's a good kick up the bum :)

... it'll give me the opportunity to work on my 'mean' persona too, if she doesn't pull her weight on her end LOL. We have a catch up scheduled for next Sunday.

The plan is she will re-start WW and will weigh in on a Tues. I still weigh in with Sureslim on a Tues so Fri/Sat/Sun will be right in the middle and a quick pick-me-up. .... also, I know no excuse will work with her hehehe. This is going to be fun!

Friday 6 November 2009

Breakfast (finish 8.20am) - 200g yogurt with 100g strawberries, seed mixture, an apple.

Lunch (finish 2pm) - 140g tuna in my oil on green salad (cos, celery, cucumber), half a tomato.

Dinner (finish 7.45pm) - 130g garlic prawns, 135g asparagus and broccoli, a pear.

Good day today. Not looking forward to the weekend with the heat wave expected - my routine is always thrown out with the weather. I'm just not a hot weather person. Hmmm maybe I should move to Tasmania? ;)

Thursday 5 November 2009

Breakfast (finish 8.05am) - two hard boiled eggs, half of seed mixture, an apple.

Lunch (finish 1.55pm) - 130g cajun chicken in rye wrap with 135g grated zucchini (yummo!), rest of seed mixture.

Dinner (finish 7.50pm) - 140g roast beef with 145g total of asparagus and broccoli, 100g strawberries and oil/vinegar.

Well my trainer weighed and measured me for the first time since January. I have gained 10kgs since then BUT in the cms is shows "minimal" (0.5-1cm) change all over except my bust where I have gained 6cm. No wonder I feel like I'm popping out of everything. Hope this isn't a permanent thing!

Monday 12 October 2009

Breakfast (finish 10am) - 65g edam, 110g cauliflower, seed mixture.

Lunch (finish 3.40pm) - 130g roast beef, 135g roast onion and broccoli, an apple.

Dinner (finish 10pm) - 140g tuna on salad of cos, celery and cucumber, an apple.

Stayed over at the bf's house last night. His mum is very excited about the whole wedding and we were swapping ideas and things, which is really cute. Actually they're lovely people so that's great :)

Sunday 11 October 2009

Breakfast (finish 11.35am) - two hardboiled eggs, 110g cauliflower, seed mixture.

Lunch (finish 6pm) - 140g diced beef in stir fry with 145g total of cabbage, bean shoots and sliced green beans, an apple.

Dinner (finish 11.35pm) - 130g chicken with lunch's stir fried veggies, an apple.

Another sleep in today - yay! Able to stay up late tonight - yay!

Wedding fever has hit, probably because I have time to think about it now. Going over expenses, what we are going to purchase, what we're not. What are people's thoughts on making your own invitations?

Saturday 10 October 2009

Breakfast (finish 10am) - 100g kiwi, 100g yogurt, seed mixture.

Lunch (finish 5.45pm) - 75 edam, 145g cauliflower, an apple.

Snack - unsweetened peppermint tea.

Well, today is the day I should be away and gone caving. Unfortunately a whole bunch of hoo-haa has happened and we can't go caving in our normal location for a little while. Planning to go to a different location the weekend of 24-25/10 though so if that works out, you'll have a happy chappy here again :)

Friday 9 October 2009

Breakfast (finish 10.15am) - 130g chicken, 135g zucchini and broccoli combined, an apple.

Lunch (finish 6.10pm) - 140g garlic prawns, 145g mushrooms and broccoli, seed mixture.

Dinner (finish 10pm) - an apple.

Absolutely stuffed today, but I love having a huge lunch :)

Thursday 8 October 2009

Breakfast (finish 11.05am) - two hardboiled eggs, an apple, seed mixture.

Lunch (finish 4.55pm) - 130g rosted lamb, zucchini, cauliflower.

Dinner (finish 10.05pm) - an apple, oil/vinegar.

It's hard waking up late and messing up the day for eating, but hopefully I'll either get used to it or figure out the best way to work with it.... eventually.

Oh, did I mention I am currently on two weeks' leave? Woohoo!

Wednesday 7 October 2009

Breakfast (finish 8.40am) - 100g kiwi, 100g yogurt, seed mixture.

Lunch (finish 2.30pm) - 130g tuna on salad as yesterday with my oil, an apple.

Dinner (finish 8.20pm) - grillied king george whiting with veggies (another birthday today - this time my mum's - so I don't know the weights of any of the food).

Happy birthday Mum!

Tuesday 6 October 2009

Breakfast (finish 9.10am) - two hardboiled eggs, 110g cauliflower, an apple.

Lunch (finish 3.25pm) - 130g roasted lamb on salad (cos, celery, cucumber) with olive oil, 100g strawberries.

Dinner (finish 8.55pm) - grilled barramundi with asparagus and broccoli - I ate out for a birthday so don't know how much the foods weighed. Came with chips too, but I skipped on them.

Monday 5 October 2009

Breakfast (finish 8.40am) - 200g yogurt, 100g strawberries, seed mixture.

Lunch (finish 2.20pm) - 130g tuna in my oil on lettuce, cucumber and celery, an apple.

Dinner (finish 8.35pm) - 140g barrumundi, 145g cauliflower.

First day of two weeks leave, woohoo!!

Sunday 4 October 2009

Breakfast (finish 9.10am) - two hardboiled eggs, 110g zucchini, an apple, seed mixture.

Lunch (finish 3pm) - 130g smoked salmon, 135g mixed salad, oil/vinegar.

Dinner (finish 8.45pm) - rye wrap with 140g chicken and 135g grated zucchini, a pear.

Saturday 3 October 2009

Breakfast (finish 9.15am) - 200g yogurt, a pear, today's seed mixture and a cup of sweetened peppermint tea.

Lunch (finish 2.45pm) - small serving of lentil soup, 2/3 of half a tomato (the rest was in the soup), an apple and salad with oil/vinegar dressing. Cup of black sweetened tea.

Dinner (finish 9.05pm) - 140g smoked salmon, 145g cauliflower.

Took a little while to bring my head around (why, I don't know, will have to figure that one out) but I've finally got back on plan today. Yay!!

Friday 18 September 2009

Breakfast (finish 8.40am) - 200g yogurt, 100g strawberries, seed mixture.

Lunch (finish 2.20pm) - 130g tuna in my oil on lettuce, cucumber and celery, an apple.

Dinner (finish 8.35pm) - 140g barrumundi, 145g cauliflower.

Well I had a good day at work today, then went home and for some reason my bf only wanted to watch WCW related stuff. I mean, I like the show, but I was sooooo tired I think I went to sleep lol.

Ah well, he means well, right? ;)

Thursday 17 September 2009

Breakfast (finish 9.10am) - two hardboiled eggs, 110g zucchini, an apple, seed mixture.

Lunch (finish 3pm) - 130g smoked salmon, 135g mixed salad, oil/vinegar.

Dinner (finish 8.45pm) - rye wrap with 140g chicken and 135g grated zucchini, a pear.

Thanks for the opinions on the eyebrow tattooing I'm thinking about. I posted it on another forum as well. They suggested I find out everything I can about this place (because no-one seems to be able to recommend anywhere else) and speak to some of their previous clients.

Well I called yesterday and they were happy to give me a phone number of a person they had treated that had also brought in her sisters because she was so happy!

I'll give her a call today.

At the clinic I have been quizzing, they do what they call 'feathering' which is like the picture I have posted above. See how the lines mimic hairs rather than just a solid block? And if you're not sure why you don't want a solid block......



That's hideous! lol

Wednesday 16 September 2009

Breakfast (finish 9.15am) - 200g yogurt, a pear, today's seed mixture and a cup of sweetened peppermint tea.

Lunch (finish 2.45pm) - small serving of lentil soup, 2/3 of half a tomato (the rest was in the soup), an apple and salad with oil/vinegar dressing. Cup of black sweetened tea.

Dinner (finish 9.05pm) - 140g smoked salmon, 145g cauliflower.

Nice and full throughout today :)

Does anyone know anyone that has had their eyebrows tattooed? I'm thinking about getting it done bc my eyebrows are so sparse that I have to get them tinted often and even then one of my eyebrows only looks half-length.

What do you think?

Tuesday 15 September 2009

Breakfast (finish 9am) - 200g yogurt, a pear and half of today's seed mixture.

Lunch (finish 2.35pm) - 130g tuna in my oil with spinach, celery and zucchini.

Dinner (finish 9.05pm) - 145g boiled zucchini with 140g fish, rest of the seed mixture and an apple.

Having a good day today. A few tricks I've been talking with people about have been really helping out. Also my usual meditation starts back tomorrow. Looking forward to it, yay!

Monday 14 September 2009

Breakfast (finish 8.45am) - two hardboiled eggs, 110g zucchini, an apple.

Lunch (finish 2.15pm) - 130g tuna in my oil on spinach and 135g red capsicum, a pear.

Dinner (finish 8.20pm) - 140g smoked salmon, 145g cauliflower and seed mixture.

Been doing a lot of relaxation a lot the last few days, I think it's really helping. I'm finding I sleep when I go to bed and I wake up before my alarm goes off. I'm still a bit tired during the day, but I can see the improvements so that's great!!

Sunday 13 September 2009

Breakfast (finish 9.20am) - 200g yogurt, 100g strawberries, seed mixture.

Lunch (finish 3.20pm) - 125g smoked chicken, 135g zucchini on spinach, an apple.

Dinner (finish 9pm) - 75g edam, half a medium tomato and onion all together. Yum. Oil/vinegar.

Saturday 12 September 2009

Darn it, I'm not doing so great.

I've lost all motivation. I don't know why specifically, but I think it has something to do with being overwhelmed with stress in my life and the lack of interest I have in the "allowed" foods these days.

Both of those combined means I had two pieces of seed bread with butter and vegemite for brekky this morning.

Wednesday 9 September 2009

Hi all,

I haven't gone anywhere, I just don't feel like blogging today.

Been a bit upset (well, more yesterday) and stressed so I haven't been able to eat much.

I'm about to go to bed, not hungry at all but the last time I ate was 2pm today (it was the only meal for the day) of tuna in my oil on lettuce and an apple.

Monday 7 September 2009

Breakfast (finished 9.10am) - two hardboiled eggs, 110g zucchini, seed mixture.

Lunch (finished 2.35pm) - 130g smoked chicken, 135g green capsicum, lettuce, a pear.

Dinner (finished 7.15pm) - 140g tuna**, 145g mushrooms and broccoli**.

Had to have dinner half an hour earlier today because I needed to rush off to meditation - it was either that or skip the meal altogether. Don't want to be doing that tho!

Sunday 6 September 2009

Come on, is there ANYTHING more attractive than this pic? lol

Breakfast/Brunch (finish 2.10pm) - vegetable lasagne, two diet cokes and a stevia-sweetened English Breakfast tea.

Dinner (finish 8.40pm) - 140g smoked salmon, 145g broccoli, seed mixture, an apple, oil/vinegar.

Happy Father's Day everyone! For Father's Day this year, my mum and my step-dad went to a winery about 30-40min away and had a gorgeous lunch. I had a vegetable lasagne (boy was I pleased when I found out it didn't contain any pasta!) which was mainly eggplant, capsicum and cheese. There were prob other veggies in there I couldn't identify, but it was really a veggie stack with some cheese. Yum! I skipped on dessert. Oh, had a sip of a really expensive wine too (just to see what expensive, award-winning wine was like).

So I've spent most of today and last night watching youtube vids with makeup and hair tutorials. I tried out one of the looks, this one:



It actually came out ok! I know NOTHING about makeup, never really wear the stuff. I didn't even know there was such thing as primer and although I tried to follow this, I don't own bronzer, brushes or much else of what she was using. Anyway, I was still pleasantly surprised so if I can make a day-time, work-appropriate version, I might see if I can make this a bit more regular. I've already picked up on my skin moisturisation and lip gloss (ah la a post I made ages ago about grooming).

So, it's just the next step! I'll take a pic next time and post it here for a bit of scrutiny :)

Saturday 5 September 2009

Breakfast/Brunch (finish 12.20pm) - 65g edam, 110g broccoli, an apple.

Dinner (finish 7.35pm) - 150g smoked salmon, 150g zucchini, an apple, seed mixture, oil/vinegar.

Speak soon!

Friday 4 September 2009

Breakfast (finish 8.30am) - 200g yogurt, a pear, seed mixture.

Lunch (finish 2.25pm) - 130g turkey, 112g mushrooms (they were heavier this morning!).

Dinner (finish 8pm) - 75g edam, 145g broccoli* and an apple.

Sorry I have been brief the last few days, it's been so busy lately! I haven't watched a single television program in days (which I think is a good thing). In previous houses I didn't have a TV at all for a good 2 years and didn't miss it, but then things got a bit more complicated in my life and I guess I needed it a bit for the escapism, now a few days without is something. Can't say I miss it though.

The only things I miss are the episodes of TV shows I like that I know aren't available on DVD so if I don't watch them when they are on I'll completely miss them.

Does anyone here consider themselves a mentor at all? If you do, who do you mentor, in what way and most importantly, why?

Thursday 3 September 2009

Breakfast (finish 9.10am) - two hardboiled eggs, 110g (guessed) zucchini.

Lunch (finish 2.50pm) - 140g smoked salmon, cucumber, lettuce, few slices of red onion, seed mixture, an apple.

Dinner (finish 8.45pm) - piece of barramundi 'A La mum' and some salad.

I gulped down lunch today so fast! Was very hungry and that didn't go away when I started to eat (like it usually does). Yay! I love having my proper appetite back, not just be annoyed lol.

Thanks for your feedback, Harry. I think this question might take a bit more thinking then - you raise some good points hehe

Does anyone know how to adjust the blog template here? I want to make it wider so it's not such a tight column. How???

Breakfast (finish 10.30am) - Seed mixture, 200g yogurt with 100g strawberries and stevia.

Lunch (finish 4.10pm) - 130g smoked chicken in salad with spinach and celery, an apple.

Feeling good today. Actually still as happy as Larry after my weigh in yesterday! I think what I really need to keep an eye on though, is making sure I get in every meal. I don't want my body to think I am under-eating and respond negatively. I spent a long time getting my metabolism back in good working order than I'd like to keep it there.

That's one of the reasons I had the reward meal yesterday (two pieces of vegemite on toast, two pieces of fudge - that's the last of it though - and two biscuits). But it didn't make me feel good. I am trying to un-condition myself with foods like these. If they make me feel yuk (especially the fudge) I need to remember and learn from it. But I'm not.

So, being theoretical, do you think if I have X-amount of good experience with something and Y-amount of bad experiences with it, that X and Y need to be fairly similar in order to learn from it?

Another example, if you have encountered a snake once and it was nice, then once again and it bit you, you might never touch another snake. If you encounter snakes 1000s of times and they're nice, then once and they bite you, you probably would take your chances again.

Do you think food is the same? I need to feel yuk 1000s of times before I'll learn?

Tuesday 1 September 2009

Breakfast (finish 9.10am) - two hardboiled eggs with 110g zucchini and seed mixture and an apple.

Lunch (finish 6.10pm) - 75g edam, 145g broccoli.

Dinner (finish 8.40pm) - 'reward meal'.

September? What the?! What happened to the rest of 2009????

Woohoo! Down 1.3kgs this week!!!!!!!

Monday 31st August 2009

Breakfast (finish 11.15pm) - Seed mixture, 100g strawberries, 200g yogurt with stevia.

Lunch (finish 7.35pm) - half a tomato and an apple .. I was in the biggest rush and it's all I could eat while driving frantically. What a day!

So I went to the gym this morning before work because I knew I was having a late one at work tonight. Got lots of energy - I was running all over the place at the gym this morning with my trainer. Now it's after breakfast but before lunch and I'm really hungry. Not fun. I knew increasing my exercise would cause me to be hungry.

Will see my consultant tomorrow for my weigh in and to see how last week's 'reward meal' has affected me. I'm feeling really good, much thinner (though that might just be psychological) so I'm hoping it worked in my favour.

I've noticed I don't have the get-up-and-go I used to have. I didn't have it before I started Sureslim either - do you think it could be age? I'm still trying to grapple with all the new things I'm discovering with age lol. It's just like I don't want to do anything - I don't want to cook, I don't want to make my bed, I don't want to do anything that ordinarily I just do without worrying about if I want to or not. Having said that, since Sureslim I've cut down on my caffeine in a major way - where I used to have four or more lattes throughout the day, now I'm only have part of one, if at all. I miss out having any kind of caffeine on most days.

Sunday 30 August 2009

Breakfast (finished 12pm) - 144g barrumundi, 131g cabbage.

Dinner (finish 6pm) - 65g edam, 140g zucchini, seed mixture, an apple.

Really hungry today, was counting down the minutes from about 2pm onwards.

Saturday 29 August 2009

Breakfast (finish 1.05pm) - seed mixture, an apple, 113g smoked salmon and 133g boiled zucchini. Also after I went to the gym this morning but before I started brekky, my dad was soooo proud of these Anzac biscuits he made last night and wanted me to try it. He's still upset about the hamburger he made me the other week that he discovered in my trash so I had a bite in front of him. I didn't finish it, but I had a bite and I think it was worth it to see his face.

Dinner (finish 9.50pm) - two fillets of chicken from KFC (I tried to scrape as much crusting off as I could)

Skipping my cousin's bday this afternoon (again) because all my family do's seem to centre around food and I think it's silly. Why can't I go and not eat and not be put in the spotlight for it?

Another gripe (must be the day for it!): I get annoyed at the lack of breakfast options on this plan. It's like I either have yogurt or eggs (which eggs are limited to three times a week) and that's it. I mean the other options are rolled oats (only if I'm desperate) and cheese (which I'm trying to reduce). It doesn't have a measurement for today's breakfast, for instance. No protein option. I'm happy to have the apple in the morning to have the higher carbs earlier in the day but still, not even the option??

Friday 28 August 2009

Breakfast (finish 8.50am) - seed mixture, 200g yogurt (guessed), 100g strawberries.

Dinner (finish 6.05pm) - 140g tuna in my oil with spinach and half a tomato, an apple, a pear.

Well sorry for the delay in writing this log, I was out all night at an Alice Cooper concert. It was awesome!!

I can't say I'm much of an Alice Cooper fan and I really didn't know any of his songs except for Poison, but it was so much fun - there was all sorts of other stuff going on on stage besides the music. It was like a whole show. They had ghosts as part of his nightmare, Alice and one of the ghosts then spent the rest of the show torturing and killing each other lol. It sounds disturbing but it was so theatrical that it was fun and over-the-top.

The audience was made up of people from around 8 years of age to easily in their sixties. Some dressed up, lots just looked like people you'd see on the street and wouldn't think twice about. Awesome!!

Has anyone seen him before? What was it like?

Thursday 27 August 2009

Breakfast (finish 9.20am) - 200g yogurt, 100g strawberries, seed mixture.

Lunch (finish 3.20pm) - 125g smoked chicken, 135g zucchini on spinach, an apple.

Dinner (finish 9pm) - 75g edam (last lot of edam for a while I think, I'm a bit cheese'd out), half a medium tomato and onion all together. Yum. Oil/vinegar.

Sorry guys, got visitors over again tonight, then going to see Alice Cooper tomorrow and the wrestling on Saturday. I hope to breath again on Sunday lol.

Wednesday 26 August 2009

Breakfast (finish 8.45am) - two hardboiled eggs, 110g zucchini, an apple.

Lunch (finish 2.15pm) - 130g tuna in my oil on spinach and 135g red capsicum, a pear.

Dinner (finish 8.20pm) - 140g smoked salmon, 145g cauliflower and seed mixture.

Feeling really good today! No time to talk though bc I've got visitors. Chat tomorrow!

Tuesday 25 August 2009

Breakfast (finish 10.42pm) - 200g yogurt, 100g strawberries and seed mixture.

Dinner (finish 6.50pm) - reward meal.

Well two big things happened today - I weighed in at 1.6kgs down (yay!!) and I had a reward meal. I spoke to my consultant about it, we went over all the pros and cons and frequency, etc. It was a really good chat. We'll see how it affects my weight, though she did say she's more concerned about my health than my weight when talking about junk food, which stands to reason.

I left in two minds - half my brain focused on the short term (which means tolerating cravings until I reach goal and dealing with them then) and the other half on long term (which means satisfying them as I go so I don't have months worth of pent up frustration once I reach goal). The second half won.

So.... what did I have? Well believe it or not, the very first thing I had was a ham and mustard sandwich on seed bread. Yum! That's really what I wanted, lots of ham in it (proper ham, not the loaf style). I had a piece of mint fudge, two biscuits and felt ill. Ewwww I'm not looking forward to doing that again.

Which is a good thing. I am no longer curious :)

Thanks everyone for your support, it means everything.

Have a good night!

Monday 24 August 2009

Breakfast (finish 8.40am) - two hardboiled eggs, 110g zucchini, an apple.

Lunch (finish 2.35pm) - seed mixture, 130g turkey with spinach and celery, a pear.

Dinner (finish 9pm) - 75 edam, 145g red capsicum, oil/vinegar, supplements.

I will give a separate calcium supplement out and see if it helps me with my cravings. They are super super strong today.

She will say 'no' but I'm going to try my best to convince my consultant tomorrow that a reward meal once a week is something I truly want to try out. I'll give it three weeks and if it's worse for my weight instead of better, I'll let it go.

Oh an embarrassing thing happened tonight, my dad asked me why a week or so ago I said the hamburger he made for me was nice, but then I didn't eat it. I can only guess he saw it in my rubbish (last night was garbage collection night). I fumbled an answer and somehow got out of giving him an excuse. What do I say? I could say hamburgers full of breadcrumbs (and I am off red meat still) in a gourmet bacon and cheese roll doesn't fit in with my current diet (I can't say 'eating') but that would open a gigantic can of worms with my mum. Urgh!

UPDATE: It's started... I'm getting questions about dinner.... what is it, how much did I have, why don't I also have ----, when did I have it, why did I have that. And being polite doesn't work, trust me. Instead I have to revert to being an adolescent and answer every question with "I dunno". lol

Sunday 23 August 2009

Breakfast (finish 9.50am) - 200g yogurt, 60g strawberries (all I had left), seed mixture.

Lunch (finish 4.15pm) - 75g edam, an apple.

Not all that hungry today. Spent the whole day at the Home Show which was so draining. I find if it's just window shopping it's easy but when it becomes something real and you're mind is thinking of actually application of products when you pass one of the zillion stalls, it really gets tough on the poor old brain.

Having a nap now before heading off to the movies with a friend.

Saturday 22 August 2009

Breakfast (finish 1.25pm) - seed mixture, 65g edam, 110g combination of cauliflower and zucchini, an apple.

Dinner (finish 9pm) - 140g smoked salmon with 145g zucchini and some lettuce, a pear, oil/vinegar.

I think my scales have broken. After putting most of my 200g pack of smoked salmon onto the scales they read 55g so I really have no idea if the above measurements are accurate now. I'll have to get another set tomorrow.

Well after my last post last night I had my multi vitamin and headed out to a good night with friends, instead of staying at home and grumbling. I didn't feel any more cravings for the whole night, didn't think about food one bit and woke up this morning feeling great! Thanks for letting my whinge a while, it helps hehe.

Before I got out of bed I went over a few things in my mind. Like what got me to this size in the first place. The big factor is instant gratification. I got to this size because I wanted something 'now' and followed that. If I do the same as I've always done, I'll get what I've always got.

Got up and went to the gym this morning, did a good workout with my trainer.

Friday 21 August 2009

Breakfast (finish 8.45am) - two hardboiled eggs, 110g zucchini.

Lunch (finish 2.15pm) - 130g turkey with spinach and celery, 100g strawberries AND and apple.

Dinner (finish 7.40pm) - cheesy veggie lasagne (75g edam, 140g total of half a tomato and red capsicum with a wheat wrap), seed mixture, oil/vinegar.

Starving all day today! Starving right now and it's not even 5.30pm!

TOM is coming up and it might have something to do with what I'm experiencing. I hope so.

Thanks for the reminder about the supplements, I haven't been having any and I think it will really help. My serious concern though, is that supplements only make cravings more tolerable, they don't satisfy them. I'm worried I'll end up doing what I have done after following other plans which is following them to the letter, putting everything out of my mind that could saboutage it, and then when I'm "finished" or otherwise reach a particular point, I have to satisfy it all at once. And it lasts weeks or months.

I don't want to do that again.

I know she'll say I can't, but I really think Protein Power's Reward Meal once a week would help me.

Thursday 20 August 2009

Breakfast (finish 9am) - 200g yogurt, a pear and half of today's seed mixture.

Lunch (finish 2.35pm) - 130g tuna in my oil with spinach, celery and zucchini.

Dinner (finish 9.05pm) - 145g boiled zucchini with 140g fish, rest of the seed mixture and an apple.

TMI Alert! Don't read any further if you're delicate.

Something that's been bothering me recently, over the last few weeks or a month or so, I've had like zero sex drive. It's just completely gone. What should I do to bring it back? And what happened to it in the first place?

Do you think it might be the lack of exercise? It's gone down to about once or twice a week only. I'm still on the pill, that hasn't changed. Maybe I've been on it for too long? Or maybe it's my calories, do you think they're too low and my body thinks it's in 'starvation mode'??

It's something that's really bothering me. My bf is starting to wonder if it's something about him. :(

Another thing I want to note is that my cravings aren't going away. I can satisfy them a little bit but really they are just continuing. I can't sweeten my teas until I have them with a meal which means I don't sweeten them - if I did my meal wouldn't finish until later which means I would have to have the next meal later and it goes on. It throws the whole day of food out just because I want to sweeten my tea.

Actually I must make a confession...

My bf and I are considering pushing our wedding to 18-24months away (instead of 12 as planned) so we can have a better chance at getting the house off the ground. Rather than trying to do both at the same time and messing both up. Well, yesterday I thought about that and my first thought was that I could just throw Sureslim out the window and tuck into a huge, iced, jam-filled doughnut for another few months and start this again later. That's terrible!! How am I ever going to maintain successfully for life if I have that type of thought?!

Wednesday 19 August 2009

Breakfast (finish 8.40am) - two hard boiled eggs, 110g boiled zucchini and an apple.

Lunch (finish 2.20pm) - 130g smoked chicken in wheat wrap with 135g grated zucchini, a pear.

Dinner (finish 8.20pm) - 145g veggies (red capsicum, half a tomato and zucchini), 140g fish, oil/vinegar and seed mixture.

In a big rush today, speak tomorrow!